tomitzel

I’ve always lived in my own world.
And i dance to escape my troubles.
I’ve learned that there’s light even in the darkest places.
I can’t blame my father for anything.
You can’t rely on other people to make you happy.
But i know deep down inside,
he loved me.

There was a time
i suffered so much i wanted to get it out of me.
I would cut my arms,
not to kill myself.
I don’t want to die.
I know i am lucky to be on this earth.
I did it so the physical pain
would calm the pain that was eating me inside.
Nothing was erased.
I leave with my past tucked away
deep inside of me.
It comes out
as an explosion and it invades me.